alive – Page 3 – Portrait of Em.

I hear the moan of the gentle wind,
I hear the heartbeat of the falling leaf,
I hear the breath of the dead air,
I hear the weep of the stagnant water,
I hear the dance of the naughty raindrops,
I hear the cry of the stormy tide,
I hear the song of the butter-fly,
I hear them all —
The sound of silence.

But I am locked here,
Scream, cry, fear, screech,
What should be heard left unheard,
What should be said stay untold.

Silence,
Silence,
Silence,

I am locked,
In the darkness of the night,
In the shade of the dawn.

Written on 17-18 October 2013,
Inside the bathroom in my flat.

I got locked inside the bathroom at 2am, for 6 hours I stayed inside,
And my Dad pacing nervously on the other side of the door.
It is the first time I slept inside the bathroom,
No smartphone, no iPad, no laptop, yet
I did not feel scared after all,
It is indeed a memorable funny experience —
Writing a poem inside a toilet.

“Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.”
— Oscar Wilde

Join me, and farewell.
And hope this poem finds you well!

No where, no why —
Ever after, life of sighs.

Tell me not your burden,
Nor your sorrows.
Go higher, fly further, to the world with just fun and laughter.

Farewell, my never-known friend,
See you when we can meet again.

Written on 9 September 2013, in Hong Kong.
Originally named “the news“.
In memory of a passed-away schoolmate, Janet, who ended her own life earlier.
I have never known her, and I think she did not know me either, but I wish to write her this poem.

There are lots of obstacles in life.
Some people say we can always get through, as long as you tried hard enough.
What if there are some which we cannot deal with —
You never know how heavy is a burden to another person,
You never know how much one can afford.
If death is a better choice, isn’t it selfish forcing someone to stay alive?

I do not know.

Dear Janet,
It has been a few months since you have gone to a better place.
I hope that really is a better place.
I wish you all the best.
Em.

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